I felt as if I wasn't belong to myself and my own world for the past 48 hours.
Been rushing through the publicity materials as if they were my assignments. But just realize that I never did a late assignment in this freaking way.
So here I am. Doesn't mean that I have got everything sort out.
Encounter another mistake I made. I was truly terrific. I could feel my heartbeat fastened and the uneasiness in my mind. I hate especially when dealing with those "big power" people. Truly need advice from someone.
Perhaps a nap will make my mind clearer.
Waking up from nap and still feeling the uneasiness as there is no reply yet. I got an emotional break down. Hah! A temporary one.
Hadn't been logging into my FB, Twitter, and etc. for the last 48 hours. The only pages always appear on my desktop are webmail, hotmail, booklet, photoshop.. @~@
Surfed the net, clicked on my blog list. Found an interesting post in Kei's. "How you see death". Can't remember the title exactly.
Ja. A slap on my mind. If one was not fear of death, is there anything else worth feared? Pardon me. I am not saying I am going to die or what. Yes. I hate defect and I hate myself causing the defect, making mistakes or got the blames from anyone out there. Self-centered. Hey! I just a normal human being, why can't I make mistakes? I am not giving myself an excuse. I know I have to learn from mistakes and be responsible for it. But I definitely can't stand the living where I have to stay PERFECT til the day I die!
Ja. Perhaps this kind of life doesn't suit me. Cause I find myself make mistake often and easily.
I rather be anything but ordinary please.
Been rushing through the publicity materials as if they were my assignments. But just realize that I never did a late assignment in this freaking way.
So here I am. Doesn't mean that I have got everything sort out.
Encounter another mistake I made. I was truly terrific. I could feel my heartbeat fastened and the uneasiness in my mind. I hate especially when dealing with those "big power" people. Truly need advice from someone.
Perhaps a nap will make my mind clearer.
Waking up from nap and still feeling the uneasiness as there is no reply yet. I got an emotional break down. Hah! A temporary one.
Hadn't been logging into my FB, Twitter, and etc. for the last 48 hours. The only pages always appear on my desktop are webmail, hotmail, booklet, photoshop.. @~@
Surfed the net, clicked on my blog list. Found an interesting post in Kei's. "How you see death". Can't remember the title exactly.
Ja. A slap on my mind. If one was not fear of death, is there anything else worth feared? Pardon me. I am not saying I am going to die or what. Yes. I hate defect and I hate myself causing the defect, making mistakes or got the blames from anyone out there. Self-centered. Hey! I just a normal human being, why can't I make mistakes? I am not giving myself an excuse. I know I have to learn from mistakes and be responsible for it. But I definitely can't stand the living where I have to stay PERFECT til the day I die!
Ja. Perhaps this kind of life doesn't suit me. Cause I find myself make mistake often and easily.
I rather be anything but ordinary please.
dun worry la.. evyth wil be fine and d event wil goes smoothly..
stil got approx 10 days oni.. endure abit more..
jiayou~!!