I am not sure what shall I do next. Chances are always given to people who are ready for it. Am I? Always tell that I have to do it. I am going to do it. Can I? There are thousand of question marks and thousand of foreseen circumstances circling my mind. I don't consider it thoroughly. I don't think about it seriously, yet. Is it going to make a difference in my life? I doubt and I know the only way to figure out is to do it. Accept or being rejected. I can't tell how. I think I am a different person now. I don't seem to reckon myself back in few years ago. No one know who and how I have evolved into. I can't tell it myself too. You told me that I shall do it, I shall fight for it, I shall not let myself regret for giving up, but you never tell me how? You just walked away, leaving me here. How am I suppose to figure out? I only see a weak me, the weakest me. A Me that do everything wrongly and place anything at mistake. And the risk I have taken and have to bear with for longer than ever. It doesn't have to be me, I know that from heart. It doesn't have to be me who woke up having that kind of heart attack feeling and starting to hate the day, to be more exactly, be afraid of the day. But now, what am I struggling at? For who? For the future I expected that may not come out accordingly to my "visions"? Or just for you solely? Who refuse to lose. Sober? I want to leave it to fate, but I know is not the right way.
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